Hey there, its ME!

Hey there, thanks for stopping by my blog.  I should introduce myself.  I am first and foremost a mom, but I also work part-time.  This past summer I turned 40. A lot of people have a hard time with turning 30, 40, 50. To me, my age doesn't define me. I don't "feel" 40.... I am not sure what 40 really feels like.  Maybe THIS is what 40 feels like. It truly doesn't feel any different than 39, 35, or even 30.... I'd like to say that it doesn't feel any different than 25 but lets be honest here on the internet... 25 was quite different than 40.  But what does it matter?  I am satisfied with where I am, who I am and where I am going.  Right? Yes, in fact I am.  There is just this one pesky thing.... my weight. I've spent the better part of the past 15 years caring for others.  For my 3 beauties and my dear husband, I've cooked, cleaned, I have cared for and mended, and did science projects and everything in between. You've heard, I'm sure, of all the jobs that moms have so I won't list them all off.  But suffice to say, I've been busy.  However, there are excuses after excuses to why I don't do for me and those had to stop. I lost my mom when I was 21.  Do I really want that for my kids?  Did she die from Obesity? No. But it was heart disease none the less. So, time to take care of me. And where do I start?
There are a lot of people who say "I am turning 40 so I need to step up the exercise" or they have their New Year's resolution. Or some other life even that makes them find the time for themselves.  For me, its this realization that I have been neglecting myself for so long. And I am not depressed, just neglecting myself. Sure, I buy myself new clothes here or there, go to the salon occasionally, but what about the inside? What am I doing to make sure that I live longer than my mom? What am I doing so that my kids don't sit and wonder what it will feel like when they have been on this earth longer without their mom than with her.  I don't want that for them.  I NEED to move past that.  Try my best to make sure THAT doesn't happen. So, today, I decided TODAY is the day, I start taking care of me. So, I have a 12 week challenge that I joined.  I will get a meal plan and a shopping list, because among the things I have discovered, is I am not as healthy of a cook as I think I am.  So, there is this personal trainer that I know.  She's running the challenge and has agreed, for a fee, to create a meal plan, a shopping list for the meal plan, and some exercise routines for me to follow.  In all my years of "dieting" or eating healthy, I have never had this level of help.  I just need HELP.  I know portion control and calories in vs calories out bla bla bla, but I want more.  I want to know how to properly fuel my body so I can get my body weight, body fat, and blood pressure down.  So here we go.  I should have my shopping list tomorrow. I can't wait!

I'll be trying to update the blog with some progress along the way, and I hope to at some point feel comfortable enough to divulge some stats with you all.  But until then, stay tuned.....